It’s the first color that greeted me when I walked into that room.
It’s the fire I felt spreading across my face when I remembered I hadn’t worn the prescribed dress code for Fridays.
It’s the raging inferno that constricted my lungs when I saw you for the first time.
It’s the subtle glow in your cheeks when you talk, completely oblivious to the fact that you have me enthralled with every flick of your hair. (For what seemed like an eternity, I am captivated. I can’t look away.)
When finally (regrettably), the class ends; I’m still swimming in that shade of your lips that held my attention throughout the whole day. (Even if I never really did get a chance to hear what they had to say.)
It’s the sudden jolt of panic in my chest when we accidentally exchange glances from across the room (don’t ever turn) -and I immediately look away.
(No, I didn’t mean it- I need to see your eyes again.)
It’s the heady mixture of giddiness and paranoia in my head when you change seats by chance -in front of me- (so fucking near, so fucking far away) on the last day of the semester.
It’s the streak of ink that marked my paper, when I finish the test earlier than intended and run away.
It’s the figurative flames I use to burn the few pointless memories I have of you in my head.
It’s the persistent flicker of embers that refuse to die each time I try.
It’s the vibrant hue of the little trinkets scattered all over campus on valentines when I regret not catching even a glimpse of your lean, wispy frame.
It’s the the color that would then annoy me for days.
It’s the frantic pulsing in my ears every time I see you walking at least five steps ahead.
It’s the silly shame that drowns me when I think that, between the two of us, I’m probably the only one who cares.
It’s the warmth of the sinking sun the last time I cross paths with you on my way home.
It’s the sensation I felt leaving me when I realize this might be the last day I’ll see your face.